so tired...

HEY!! it's been awhile since i've posted on here...but i feel the need to let some feelings out. March was SUCH a busy month for me...i had so many trips going on, plus the long interesession in the AT. This spring, i'm spending Easter in Tennesee with some cousins but i just don't feel like traveling for now. I'm tired of having to Leave Ehmil and other people. i'm gonna be here most of the break...but i just don't think i have the energy for any more trips for now. I just kinda wanna settle back into my relgular life. The thing that makes me sad the most is i'm gonna be gone during Ehmil's 17th birthday. I truley wish i wasn't gone to miss that considering i wasn't there last spring. I love him and it makes me sick that i'm always out during his birthday...but i do wanna do something for him cuz it's only so long that we will be the same age lol. until i turn 18 lol. and i care about him. When i got home i was so eager and excited  to give him a call...but i was still in my tired recovering mode and i didn't seem as excited over the phone to talk to him as i wanted to be...like i didn't have enuff energy to really talk about the good stuff on the trip. but inside of me missed him like crazy. i guess i should of waited till i was fully recovered from the trip cuz i guess i was slur talking? even my parents noticed that..i guess i was just knocked out. but i didn't wanna admit it. But it made my evening kinda awkard and sad. I have the day off today...but i just wanna be at school right now instead of here. I'm lonley here and theres nuthin todo. My mom thinks i should go to the track meet today. I feel like i could run but i don't have my uniform yet.

Todays has been good. I didn't have to go to school today!! I met up with Samantha, Ashley, Rebecca, MissD and Sayo up at school around 10:30ish. We all walked down to the chinese Resteraunt down in hyde park. After that, we walked to Graders and sat on the benches for quite a while and messed around. Samantha and I were gonna walk back to graders to get some water and Rebecca ran saying Ehmil was here with his bike. i immediatly walked back to where everyone else was, which was near the coffee place. Ehmil was there!! i got to see him for a little amount of time, but it was all good!! He was riding his friend's bike to his friend's house. It was pretty cool.

My mom picked me up from school, god damn, she was bitch'n a whole lot of random shit to me. Like when she saw me walk in the building, i didn't hold the door for him...i did!! the door was locked so i went and held the door for him inside... she was like "No, you hold the door standing outside!!" it may be that way, but at least i was considerate than not being considerate at all!! then she wanted me to give specific amount of directions to go home, which was completely random...................................................... she got pissed, because I wasn;t thinking fast enough. Fuck her!!!!!!! she can bitch to me all she wants, but she knows i'm not gonna put up with it......because she's the one who wants to take things overboard.

I have stupid PIano soon..... Hate piano..... hate the teacher.... hate the lession..... Hate playing for people.....WHy not quit?? because my mom thinks it's "bolonie" or however you spell it if I stop just because i'm not into it anymore and i don't enjoy playing it as much as I used to.

Well, this week was hell... I'm glad exams are over!!! Damn, i think today was the most stressful... I had the history, English and Biolgy exam today. The history exam was shit... it had nothing to do with any thing i studied... English was cool... Biology was shit!!! Steph bitched to me over shiznat...yeay, that pretty much fucked my day up!! I'm not gonna tell why... she just gave me a bunch a crap....

Other than that, I got a B on my computer test, i did alot better then what i've expected. So that was good. Yesterday, ski club was cancelled, so I went to Track condititioning, that was alright. we ran around the building and all that... even weights. Then my mom picked me up and started heading out to Perfect North, because Walnut still have ski club. So, I skied alittle and had dinner there, it was fun! hehe. I talked on the phone with Ehmil for alittle...but my mom made me get off cuz of studying.

Well, that was a boring ass 3 day weekend... Could of been more exciting if u ask me....

I've been sick for the past couple days... well, heaces, nosia, and muscle aces. I went to school today feeling like that. I didn't eat any lunch today, because i felt like i was gonna throw up. I felt better towards the middle of the day though.

I hate exams, we start tomarrow... I think i don't have to go to school on Friday!! Hally's in my intersession!! sweeeeet!!!!! this intersession is gonna be LIVE i tell ya!!

I've pretty much had the house to my self this weekend... My mom and Jamie went to visit my Grandparents in Virginia, Blair's been doing other stuff.... My dads been working... so i was on my own. Yesterday was kind of dull, because no one was availble to do anything. I just studied for the final exams. I went to CIncinnati Mills mall with Sayo, Rebecca, and MissD. We were gonna see a movie, but the line was to long. We shopped and had dinner at Panda Express (reallly good!!)

I got home late. My dad didn't know where I was because i never called him. I talked on the phone with Ehmil when I got back and watched the Matrix. Pretty good evening. OH YEAY! i bought a pair of clogs, Head bands, these surf earings, and two pairs of shorts for track. yay! hehe!